This is going to be short

I should be sleeping I have a race in the morning. However, I just finished signing all the documents for the sale of our old house. I love that house it is where I brought my babies home, helped my mom through cancer, went through 3 foot surgeries, and it was a good place.

Now to make sure the inspection goes well and that the next people have as much love for the house as I do.

Tomorrow. Tomorrow I will mention today's toenail incident. Ick!

That 10K thing is happening

I managed to get out for a run around the lakes this morning and ended up doing more than a 10K. Oops! I did about 7 miles outside and now I get what Crazy Running Girl has told me.  Treadmill running has become mundane and boring and outside running is so much better.

I will say it was a tough run! I have figured out that the first mile to mile and a half is where I struggle and after that I am in my stride and can just keep going.  The problem today was my feet felt like lead. Once again I had a poor night of sleep and woke up in the hallway.  I was having a bad dream about Sara again and I was running to help her when I woke up.  I have no idea why it is always her but I could make some guesses. She was our smaller of the two twins with reflux, a helmet, and she stopped breathing on us a few times.  In the hallway I realized I was going to her bedroom and that in my dream  she was upstairs so I knew it was a bad dream.  This has got to stop!

I had an appointment on the other side of town yesterday and decided to call the best friend and we did a birthday lunch.  The sushi was no Wakame but I haven't had sushi in ages.  Actually, the last time I had sushi was with Crazy Running Girl. The BFF and I talked about all the normal fun stuff and as I left I had a thought and had to laugh.  You know when you meet people in college you never know who  you will stay in touch with.  Well I figured the BFF and I would go to our graves with a wheelbarrow of secrets.   As we have know each other now 16 years we might be getting closer to a semi.  I had to laugh.  16 years and a lot of laughter, tears, and support.  As for support I hope she knows if she gets the Steele Fitness Challenge I will do whatever I can to help her (Win). I know she is a competitive person but I just want her to be around forever for the kids and I. Danyal would be lost without his other mother.

As for upcoming fun, class all day this Saturday, and a team run with Crazy Running Girl on Sunday. The Color Run should be fun!

Now, I am off to write a research paper that is due Monday and has yet to be started.

My subconscious is at work

Our friends son dying has really kicked my mommy brain into motion.  I have always been a person who remembers their dreams, sleep walks, sleep talks, and if I have nightmares, unfortunately I vividly remember them. 

The recent events have really kicked my brain into working overtime at night to think about these things as a mom.  As a result my sleep has been awful to say the least.  I have been having nightmares that bad things have happened to people I love and I have been up more than a few times at night to check on the kids.  One night I found Sara with a pillow over her face.  When I tool it off she put it back on her head.  She is SO my daughter. 

On a better note all of the weird events have had me running more often and longer distances. I do my best brain organizing when I run.  Now if only I could write my paper in my head on my next run. I have a team race this Sunday with some old and new friends.  It should be a good time.  

Now off to try and do the dishes.  It appears the anti-napper is back.  We are on an hour and Danyal is still talking. This seems to be happening more often. I guess my sanity breaks are nearing the end.  Sara on the other hand (the previous anti-napper) is now napping for an hour and a half.  I guess you can't win them all. 

Early birthday fun

What happens when there are five birthdays in July? You pick a day,celebrate, and have cake overload!

It's hard to believe my babies are almost two and that my goddaughter (Sara's godmother) turned sweet sixteen! When my cousin was born I was heading off to college. I have to say she has turned out to be a pretty great kid. Though it does make me feel old now.

It's hot in here!

I need to run outside. The problem is with a heat index of 105-110 for the last week you cannot pay me to run outside! I cannot wait for the cool down next week.

Today will be fun. I am going to try and make the kids an Elmo cake. There are 5 birthdays in the month of July so we celebrate them all at once. The husband, me, my goddaughter turns 16, and the kids. It should be a day of sun, fun, and cake overload tomorrow.

Danyal informed me that they were "leaving the room". This is how I found his blueberries. :)

Saving the best for last

Why is it one can go through an entire Master's program an then at the end they add a new course and it's amazing?! Really the best class of the whole program started last night. This is so frustrating to me as it has such great real world implications.

On another note I have a class finishing next week. I might be working ahead a bit. I wrote all the papers for that class yesterday. Most aren't due until mid July. I just didn't want all I the papers hanging over my head. Where was this motivation in my undergrad program? As Sara's godfather put it, it probably had something to do with living my life and not finding sanity time alone.

Sadly, yes, I really do love writing papers and will miss this portion when I graduate.

A mixed day

Today has been more like the good, the bad and the not so pretty of all days.

The good - I had a great run. We are talking about 7.1 miles in 77 minutes! A year ago a quarter of a mile would have made me collapse.  I have never run farther than about 5.5 miles. I guess I might actually hit my goal of a half marathon!

The bad - Our friends son was killed in a motorcycle accident. He was a great kid and knew what he wanted. To top it off I owe a lot to his parents whom are our friends. They helped us out a ton when I was in the hospital on bed rest jut in case I went into labor.  They are also the nicest people you could ever find. Why do the awful things in life happen to the nicest people?

I also had my first job interview on Thursday in 4 years. I am not sure where this is  going to go. The other problem is daycares in our area have no openings. So I feel torn as I love being home with the kids, but I miss adult things too.

The not so pretty - My poor grandpa has 27 stitches from the top of his lip.  He has had melanoma a few times.  Once again cancer rears it ugly head. I love my grandparents. They are amazing people and I don't know what to do when they aren't around. I love their stories and just hanging out with them. I know they aren't young anymore (86 and 84) but selfish me wants them around forever.

My back yard also makes this list! It is like a jungle out there! My mom hung around to try and help me dig up some of it but in 90 degree weather we only lasted 2 hours.  I am hoping to get more done each morning this week.

Here is to hoping for a better day. Everyone go hugs your kids and those you love.